Our sad news

Just to give everyone an update, I ended up having a miscarriage. We had known for a few weeks that the pregnancy was not progressing at a rate doctors hoped it would, but we kept hoping for the best. It's been a surreal experience. Just a few weeks ago we were celebrating expecting a new baby, pulling out maternity clothes and searching for names and now, everything has to go back like it was before we ever took that pregnancy test. It's almost like the past few weeks haven't existed...or that they shouldn't have existed. It's difficult to go backwards when it is our human nature to move forward. And while we reveled in the celebration of Makaela's 2nd birthday, the irony of celebrating the life of one child and grieving over the loss of another was tough. Our friends and family have been more of a support than we have ever realized and we are truly blessed to have such wonderful people in our lives. Most of all, I feel so lucky to have Matt in my life because he is such a rock- so many people focus on the mother's role in a miscarriage, but forget that the father goes through just as much, if not more. He has sat through every doctor's appt, dealt with my emotional ups and downs and has beared this burden as well. I can only hope that Makaela (and any future children) inherit his sense of committment, compassion and perserverence.